Dear my body,
This is a love letter to you. We’ve had a rough few years haven’t we? I lost touch with you, began to treat you badly, and then I blamed you for everything. I told myself I wasn’t successful enough on youtube or instagram because I wasn’t skinny enough to wear the clothes I wanted to wear. But none of it was your fault. I wasn’t happy and confident with who I was on the inside and that was the problem. Now that I am though, and I’m ready to apologize. I love who I am and I’m glowing again. It’s time for me to treat you better.
I like to say that I am body posi kinda gal. Which is true, most of the time I am. But there are still those days, where I put on a bikini, or my favorite dress and cry because of the way I look. Sure everyone has those days, but I want to rarely have those days. I have seen what we look like, when I go to the gym. When I put in the work to achieve a healthy lifestyle. And this time, I don’t want to quit.
My goal for us, is Holiday season. I know, holiday season is rough for us. But this year I want to be confident with you. I want to wear cute skirt and tight combos. Wear a tight dress on New Year’s, and on Thanksgiving, I want to wear the overalls I got for Christmas last year, that are just an inch too tight in my thighs. I think we can do it, no, I know we can do it. I know I can do it.
I’m starting pilates with my grandma in July, I’ve cut out all drinks but water (an occasional cheat drink here and there). Stress eating? Gone. Anytime I feel stressed and want to munch, I’m going to make tea instead and take a breather to destress myself. For food, I’m not any specific diet, instead I’m maintaining healthy proportions and overall healthy eating. I don’t want to force myself to eat healthy things I don’t like because we both know, that doesn’t work well for me. I want to take my blog readers and instagram followers on our journey. Why? Because, I wish I had someone to follow when I first started mine almost two years ago. Someone who wasn’t already super fit. Someone who is in the moment going through their journey. We have to inspire others to love who they are at the beginning, middle, and end. Right now, we are at the beginning.
This wasn’t an easy letter to write to you. But I’m glad I finally found the right words. I love you.
Xoxo, the girl on the inside.
Wow. This blog post has taken me all week to write. I could not find the right words to write. My mom told me to just be personal and to me there is nothing more personal than a love letter right? I knew I wanted to post this post because if any of you reading this are looking for a workout buddy, I want to be that person for you. <3
Alright, I don’t want to make this post too long and sappy because there are many more of these to come in this new journey for me. I’m going to post my before pictures below and all of my measurement. I love you guys!
So here we go. My clean slate.
Before Pictures | Measurements | Weight
Bust: 35 inches
Arm: 11 inches
Natural Waist: 30 inches
Love Handle: 36 inches
Hip: 40 1/2 inches
Thigh: 24 inches
Calf: 14 inches
Weight: 149.6 lbs.
Always remember to love who you are.
xoxo, marta bean.